wellllll it's been a while since i wrote but i have trouble collecting my thoughts amongst other things that have priority over this.
so maybe i'll just write something to clear my head.


everytime i bring up going across country for college, my parents always ask me "why?" and i just say "i don't know"
and make up some bullshit excuse. i could never honestly say this, but it's to get away. if i told them this, they would think i was insane or something. do not want.


i feel like i'm healthy and young and spontaneous and ambitious and i should embrace it now and if there is ever a time to just go across country and forget everything i've ever known and leave behind my previous life, the time is now. there are so many experiences in life you can obtain by launching yourself onto every wave, and limiting myself geographically is limiting my imagination. i believe a fresh start is such a nice thing. 

you will never fully understand life until you're willing to let go and just live. embrace independence and the new experiences. this is what i seek to do. i am very aware i am leaving behind my support system and pretty much all of my family and friends; however, i believe it'll be worth it in the end. i just wish to travel as i please and not be held down by people or money or anything of the sort. just me and the world and nothing else, that's all i want.